Rebel Against Reality

true colors.....

2006-05-04T09:02:00.000-07:00

Was supposed to enjoy my actual birthday today but in the end has to spend the whole day slacking and sleeping at home cos it falls on a thurs not a weekend.But oh well what the hell hahaz...You might be thinking why i name my post true colors?It so happens that i came to know about the displeasure and dissatisfaction some people have over my nick and because of that,they started to evolve into some flaming maniac making lots of noises and big fuss about it.Woah..actually looking at this from another angle,i'm quite flattered that people bother to make a big fuss out of my msn nick..I'm honored!

Even though i did not personally see what was written in the blog of his/her.It just goes to show how fake certain people are.It is only through situations like this that you actually see the real true self of a person.The thing is...i'm not even talking about anyone that has direct relations with you!Ok,in case the others reading this are confused,i just voiced out and express what i thought of the band Jade.No lies in what i typed and its what i think so i have the right to express what i think.

BUT i don't know why BUT people just have to come and kick a big fuss out of things that don't really involve them.Look,if you don't like something means you won't like it,no matter what others say or do.My impression won't change.So i don't see anything wrong with being direct and express what i think.I think it's better this way rather than to wear a mask all the time and do evil things behind other people's back.

Ok,if you all think what i said about Jade is untrue then let me ask a question.If they are really the best band in Superband,if they are really so good in their techniques why did the judges give them just-pass kind of points?If u tell me that it's because the judges know shit about music,are you saying that the bands are being judged by judges with no standards which links to it being a competition with passable standards only?Think about it.My band isn't that tight or that gd also. I admit,i'm not a fantastic vocalist but it doesn't mean that i'm not entitled to voice out my views.

Actually i have no intention to start wars or whatsoever,but it seems i'm being forced to draw a line with certain people.In the 1st place,the band that i'm shooting wasn't even related to our own friends at all so i really don't know why people can change to being so overly sensitive over this.

Call me sour or whatever fuck shit u wanna say.My opinion still stands strong and it will never change. FYI i was the one who discourage the rest of the band to join this competition cause i just have a feeling this isn't the path to achieve our band's actual goals.

For now...true colors of people are showing up ....one by one....

finally....its being revived from the grave.....

2006-04-28T09:16:00.000-07:00

As the title goes...yes finally after a bloody bloody long (x 100) time i picked up my fingers to type this update that you all are reading.Why?You may ask..well its because life has been really monotonous for me for the past few months which causes me to be lazy to put anymore updates in my blog.Wake up go work/school go home online then sleep then wake up the next morning same old shit...boredzzz..UNTIL lately,there's this much talked-about show on channel U that got me alive and awake once more, to voice out my opinions on certain issues.As most of us know,this show i'm talking abt is the Superband competition on tv.It got all the bands so hyped up and enthusiastic at 1st cause there's finally a way for bands to make it big.Even Brian was thinking of joining. But here's the catch:there's no amplification available for the bands as in guitar and bass amps,drums etc...So u call that a band competition huh?It was only after complaints from people that they decided to "compromise" a bit and bring in all the instruments and sound equipment.
Knowing about this,i told Brian and the rest of the band directly:No,i have a feeling this programme is just like the other superstar idol shows where their main aim is to bring in money..so we should wait and see how the whole thing goes.True enough,now that it's being aired on tv, the system works this way.70% general audience votes and 30% from the judges.Sheesh..it's no wonder even the contestants that were so damn bloody obviously bad got thru round after round.Why?Because they have strong support from the general votes.Now is this STILL a competition that is being judged on SKILL and PLAYING?One of the obviously bad groups i have seen appeared on tv is "xia ri feng" a.k.a Summer breeze.I saw them at Suntec performing and i think to myself that this band is one of those that will get kicked out .To my surprise they got thru.Round 2, they got thru again even though they did the same old thrashy hip hop wannabe moves...ok fine...but 3rd round they got thru again!!!WTF!!Impossible cause the judges gave them the lowest points possible!Then that night i talked to Mel about this and she told me the reason.It seems that they have support from a certain self-proclaimed holy group and the China embassy.WOW~!That must be a hell lotta money rollin in!!After them,comes this band which has a very "aunty" kind of name...Jade.Reminds me of those aunties working at cina hair salons haha.Maybe i should change our band to be called Ruby.Has the retro kind of feeling XDDD.Anyway their guitarist missed the cue to end the song at Suntec's performance and they got in.. ok fine maybe the judges overlooked it.Then comes round 2 where the vocal did damn badly cause his voice crack so freakin obvious in the final part of the song BUT they still got in!!!!!!Then comes round 3 where their playing is in a mess in terms of timing and coordination and they still got thru..damn its like really sad how the music scene is nowadays..it has come to a point where good playing isnt really an important factor anymore.Money matters most.I mean i do admit my band (including me) isn't of any high standards or anything but c'mon la if u noe ur voice will crack while singing that octave then try to sing it in another note in that key or dun try to attempt.Or choose a song where u can sing comfortably.I'm sure anyone who has learnt singing should know ur range of notes that u can hit.The very least i try to put in 100% effort for every jamming session.To me,what summer breeze showed me was that they just wanna get it done, get it over with.Didnt spend much time choreographing the dance steps or practice their singing.I know many will not like what i have just written here and will start to flame me back or whatsoever but it's just facts that i'm stating.It's quite sad to see grps and bands like Juz-B and Shinobe that played really well, almost getting kicked out due to poor votes. Cause they really are the ones that spice up the show.I aint fanboy of any groups i mentioned..just my views on the music scene lately....right now, back to a bit of song writing.....

The NKF man...

2005-07-15T02:00:00.000-07:00

Yup,this post i am gonna give my views on the latest news going on around people's mouths and the media.The NKF story...Now in case to those who STILL dunno what happen...in brief,The CEO of NKF was suspected and being sued for misuse of donation funds as the SPH somewhat,dug out sources that he flies 1st class,had Gold taps installed in his house and has a 12 yr bonus..(my monthly salary is only 10% of his 1 mth bonus...-.-...)Anyway,25000 is his monthly salary.Well,it seems that he..itchy backside thinking that the media can play play around just because of his status,sued them for publishing untrue facts about his gold taps and other rumours only to get the shit that he threw out,back in his own face.It is said that he gave a weak and poorly motivated look after the court session.Soon after,vandals hit the NKF building,donors cancelled their donations,petitions were out for him to resign...
To me,i think that he made the mistake of blewing it big by stepping on the tail of SPH.As everyone knows that media and the newspapers are the strongest form of information here.They can either bring ur reputation up or down to the gallows.By sueing them,he is issuing an official challenge that he isnt afraid of them...He's f**ked himself up.Good ..let him know this lesson learnt. I think he should step down before he gets more violent protests from people and also..getting the kidney patients into trouble.Yes..the money was said that it could last them 4 decades but what about after 4 decades?Fund rates would plunge..and the patients after that...would be the ones suffering not that man.So pls la Durai Deh....WAKE UP UR IDEA,DON'T BLOODY WASTE OUR 1900 HOTLINES LIAO LA HOR!!!

finally ...update again!

2005-07-15T01:20:00.000-07:00

haha,i know how many ppl have been cursing and making noise about my blog not being updated but then aiya sian la nothing to write about might as well don't write correct or not>?,Anyway,to all Roald Dahl fans,Charlie and the chocolate factory will be shown in the 1st week of August so remember to catch this "sweet sweet" movie!Oh which reminds me of a choco joke started by Brian.I think that was the best joke he made out to make mi laff till stomachache,cause he said that a certain person i disliked,somewhat reminds him of a man made out of chocolate.You know,the Cadbury commercial where there's this whole family in a car made out of chocolate?hahaz,due to his brown chocolatey skin color,i can understand why he came up with that joke,the funny part was when we said that he had a snicker bar for his D**k and Kinder surprises for his balls which can open up with toys and Hershey kisses for nipples...That brian never fails to make my day which is why he isnt called the cockster in Marionette for nothing hahaz.Think i might continue and write a super-hero story with Chocolate Man as the villian and me,Leopard Man as the Hero.LOLz.Stay tuned for Mat Leopard's next post regarding the cheating of our donations by the NKF man!!

2005-06-13T07:57:00.000-07:00

things to reflect on after D'j party 05...

2005-06-06T01:50:00.000-07:00

Finally,the day has arrive,and now that big day is over...,yes..The day of D'j party 05 that we have been looking forward to is over ,must say that thanks to the efforts of Alfe and Emerson and all the bands who rocked the stage,u all were great.The sound quality was much much better than last yr's and the 4 other guys were gd too.To brian,weijie and nic hope u all will improve or maintain,we give ourselves this promise that next yr we will improvve in everything ok??!I also like to thank all for coming to watch the bands and give us support hope to see all of u all next yr!!But ever since yesterday's gig,the response from the crowd left me something to reflect about,it seems the crowd will respond much more better to cover songs than a band's self written compositions although originals show much more abt the band's quality in music.When i reached home,i'm beginning to think:should i bring the 4 guys to continue walking towards the road of originality or should we just compromise and continue playing more covers for street fest and sort of put originals no.2.At 1st,i thought we will have to LL and compromise but after much discussions with Jo and my own band mates,i think we can still play originals but must balance it.Oh well,then it shall be as planned.But i would like to pose one questions for readers: singaporeans keep saying our local bands cannot make it and stuffs,but are the people giving bands a chance, a hope to expresstheir originality? dun get me wrong,i'm not saying that our originals are damn gd or what but i seem to learn that people dun really notice the band's composed pieces but instead the covers they played.So..are we gonna stay as a cover band for life?Just want the views of those who are reading this,i'm not flaming anyone or aiming anyone,just wanna noe the individual opinions... :O

latest gossip....

2005-05-12T01:42:00.000-07:00

nothing much lately...why i'm writing the post so late and after so long is because i'm worn out by band stuffs and wrk..haizz now even have to take the stupid course to keep this rice bowl sia..hope i dun fail the exam still a lot of Optical things catch no ball haizzz,and that manager of mine still want mi to concentrate on sales and dun really wanna teach me Wth lo...,there are no customers,NO,NONE,i dunno what sales he want mi to do sia...and still got to get everyone coordinated with the 3rd original that we are performing on St Fest.headache headache..Fortunately,we are moving towards the road of originality and we have got a few originals to perform this yr...for the 5 of us we have put in a lot of effort in composing the songs so hope this yr's response will be gd lo...and also this yr brian and the rest will look much better and more happening than last yr .No more sucky appearances and wigs ,this time is full glam and i will do my best to make us all look gd and take a few pics to put in our webby for future....hmm i myself believe that we all shld eat the humble pie and never to be egoistic or brag abt ourselves which is what i always tell brian and the rest in terms of being in a band..but it seems that thruout a few experiences...being Mr.Nice guy or a tolerant person doesnt really pay off and i ended up getting the 4 others in bad situations at times...Brian still gets flamed..i still get stepped over by some ppl and every gig we went thru always seems screwed up.Bad Luck? I doubt it...I really hate losing temper but who doesn't..but then again its always the ppl with fucked up character around us that likes to take advantage or climb over me.I cant change myself to be a really bad person,well yeah im mean at times but to be a really evil person i just cant do that..so i'm still the Ivan u all noe la horz hahaz...ya tok cock a lot right this blog cos i also dunno what to write so voice out my opinions on people here lohz...still whether u all like mi or condemn me..I still wanna say this: come support us at St fest!! at least come see the other bands or see chio chio cosplayers la if u dun like us haha...getting late think the next update will be after st fest haha i dun like to update everyday one la sori hahahazzz

improving...

2005-04-20T22:59:00.000-07:00

Long time never update this blog already.The reason?Not because of Spider-man(get it the reason by hoobastank?LOL) ok lame joke.Anyway,its because Obscurity were training real hard for the gig on April 17th called Guitar Extravaganza.Its Organised by Brian's guitar teacher and I was glad we got thru it smoothly cos i was having bad cough that day.Was afraid that i might screw up while singing but luckily nothing happened.Everyone played smoothly and there was an unexpected crowd which is Mayu's frens all one grp sitting upstairs supporting us!I really wanna thank all that came to the gig that day.On behalf of Obscurity thank u all for coming.and Andrew sorri i didnt remind u abt coming to the gig and still u came with frens hehe thanks!Due to the last min change in drummer our 1st jam with Kelvin who is Nic's buddy wasnt that gd cos he hadnt grabbed hold of the beats in Varuna but luckily during the gig he remembered all the parts and esp. Nic he didnt forget or get distracted during the performance.To weijie,brian and nic,let us all keep it up and improve on our music cause u guys have improve lots since our 1st day together.Keep it up and Kelvin,thanks for helping us last min.Hope u can continue to support us in future gigs!Last but not least,Obscurity will be changed to Marionette in the next gig which is Street Fest. but still the same members....that's all for now.......

gd news and bad news...... :) :~(

2005-04-03T23:44:00.000-07:00

haiz this weekend hmmm got gd news and bad news,positive and negative stuffs happening haizzz or cheer up?
Yesterday morning ,woke up at 830 am and chiong down to head office before work starts looking forward to get my pay for march and what the F*** happen? The idiotic China lady told me no money to pay me?Hello? I called on Fri to say im collecting on Sat morning.She gave me the reason that too many part timers came to collect earlier and she had not enuff to give me?Then MY FAULT?? Bloody hell spoil my mood for the whole Saturday,and i had to ask for urgent cash transfer from my mum,making lots of trouble for both of us and making me lose my mood to work that day.F***ing big company got not enuff cash to pay me sia....really damn funny...
Lucky thing is that,things turned out better that night cos i went to meet Melissa for coffee and she sort of cooled me down...After that night when i went home,i decided that this is it.She is the girl for me,so i told her about my feelings and at 230am on 3rd apr 05(030405 nice number right?LOL) she is my official dear dear ! hahahahazthen nvm as i was thinking things would be fine today,Cheng Yi once again didnt turn up for jamming last min.-__- because of his tyrannous dad who oppose him playing music.I was pissed off once again and the 4 of us tried to make ourselves happy by playing I for U in the jamming room with Nic on drums LOL.damn bo liao sia hahaz.Luckily he has a drummer fren whom i heard is gd,Hope things turn out well for Apr and Jun,dunno why leh is it just me or is it im suay ? Every yr without fail,just b4 gig sure got things cock up and give me heart attacks,damn.....

updates and gig info...

2005-03-20T22:40:00.000-08:00

To all,
Obscurity will be having a small gig on April 17th at Young Musician's Society YMS Arts Centre which is located at 54 Waterloo Street. The nearest mrt station should be Bugis, we do hope you will be there as we need lots of support for we are just a band who just started out not long ago. Please do come and support. =D
Obscurity are:
-Ivan (Vocals)
-Nicholas (Guitar)
-Brian (Guitar)
-Weijie (Bass)
-Cheng Yi (Drums)

updates lately!haha nothing much just standing around and getting paid once again in my slack job.But had quite an enjoyable day out with my new found friend who's in to punk also!We were supposed to watch Swing girls but that day full house so i went to buy tix for Robots instead.A very cute yet touching show about pursuing ur dreams...hmmm I will always remember..not to give up..kekez...After the show we hang around at heeren then chat chat a while b4 she went home.Hmm really interesting sia ,dress the same pattern as me,like the same kind of music and also like me,look like ah toot when she wears glasses LOLz..Hmm still owe her a treat think pay day must go out and have a feast with her ,my eating kaki... XD...Hmm oh by the way to those who dunno where the place is,Its the place where John Myung's clinic was held recently.Those who dunno pls ask those who went for the clinic they will give u more details..Hmmm hope Cheng Yi can perform well in this gig he last min tell us he cannot jam,causing brian and heath to bring their guitars out for nothing haizzz hope this gig and street fest one turns out well the past 2 very jialat hope there's a change of luck....

hmmm enlightenment...

2005-03-14T21:35:00.000-08:00

Just read Alfe's latest posts in his blog and finally understood-ed the true meaning of making it big and getting signed to a major record label,all these years i've been having this naive perception of being famous in the music industry ,after reading it i was sort of "enlightened",very true that the the whole record label owns u and the whole of u,so we are very much under their control,i guess i should stop thinking of so called trying to get signed to a record label and based on my standard im still not there la so dun bother thinking abt it liaoz hahaz,after what he post i dun think its really an easy life like what the movies potray rock stars as,u noe...money fame and all the shit.For now,work hard on improving my band and my own vocals hehe...its a much better life now compared to for example what Sly is having now..he has to "duo duo chang chang" even if he wants to go town for shopping!Ah Long saw him at Bugis that time,he was so paranoid even though he just tapped on his shoulder and called him out.Man..what an abnormal life....Anyway,i finally have time to put something here because today is my off day,shit why today if its changed to yesterday would be better then i can see Kuek swaying on stage with his newly rebonded hair LOL.Heard Brian say eh look like Ah Beng,but i think from some angles he has the Toshiya look lo hahaz,Kuek dun fly up to the sky just because i say this horz XD!!hmmm must quickly think of vocal part for the new originalzzzz...*gonez*

Another day Another week...

2005-03-08T21:50:00.000-08:00

Hmmm,it has been quite a dull week and for a particular grp of musicians,they are at their worst period of time now...heard from them that they have disbanded..due to many reasons which out of respect i shant say it here,but no matter what, they have done quite a lot to promote local music and j-rock so i wanna say a big thank you to all the members no matter what.At the moment,Jun and Alfe are still going to continue planning the street fest even,hopefully this yr wun have any unpleasant experiences cos its at Youth Park -__-.That place hmm isnt a very nice place but then let's just pray nothing happens..Had jamming last Sat,BAD BAD BAD session,the drums the guitar all just dun sound right.Damn the room 5,dunno why also that room forever cannot make it.But the rest have improve a lot,finally Cheng Yi has remembered the parts of the original songs well but still he needs to kick his hait of starting to come in too fast.Looking forward to the April gig,cause i wanna take it as a warm up to the street fest in June...Then after jamming ,went to meet up with the rest for Qiaoling's birthday party at AMK.Nothing much this weekend except meeting up with zhiwei after seeing Ed's band jam.From there we had a long chat regarding the happenings in his band which some stuffs were unexpected to hear abt...hmm and he said i'm like the last man standing now but i also dunno can stand for how long hahahaz..for now...to work hard towards my goal bahz....

countdown 2 more days to working life...

2005-02-21T01:02:00.000-08:00

Hmmm..yet another normal outing day today after jamming at Wee Lee.Surprisingly i saw many bands today,Mayfair and Zhihui they all also jam today.Overall,i would say for my band today we have made lots of improvement but of cos not that well coordinated yet,i think Cheng Yi too shag today,kept on forgetting which part must change a diffrent kind of drum beats,hope i aint pressurising him too much though...cos he really has potential to be a gd drummer..Nic has made the most improvement ever since the 1st time,luckily i didnt replace him immediately which is the same case as Brian last time LOL.I decided to let him try out a few times and results were fruitful.Can say its kind of a blessing for me loh but of cos we wont stop here,we will work even hard to play our best hehe.After jamming just went to meet Tabe and Jojo then later Sakuya and his fren Dan joined us for a while.We went home after slacking at mac for a while.Hmm that marks my last Sun going out i guess..cos after this week the following Sundays will be working le...hope i can pick up the job easily.For now i'm off to net surfing~~~~

My 1st Naruto cosplay kekez...

2005-02-20T02:10:00.000-08:00

Wa...finally Ord lo!!!! I just reach home not long ago from the cosplay party today at Golden Landmark Hotel organised by SCC.Didnt really expect my 1st try to be so successful cos i tot ppl would think my gourd sucks haha.But everyhting turns out fine.I reached there abt 645pm then met up with Kyoist to go in.After which i tied the gourd to me and started taking pics lohz.But the buffet a bit ermm -__-" dun have rice or bee hoon only got like mini snacks lo...and to think i paid 26 bucks for it hmmm...Anyway was a fun day as i had all kinds of poses taken with all the naruto cosplayers hehe..ahhh~~ long time dun have such feelings le..having photos taken by so many ppl cosplaying and stuffs...Will be starting work on Tues at paris miki hmmm hope the boss dun mind my hair color if not wasted sia~spent 30 bucks on it.kekez guess thats all for now....below are some of the pics i taken~ will upload more when i find more....

2005-02-19T10:20:00.000-08:00

me with Marchecos..another Vkei cosplayer^^

2005-02-19T10:18:00.000-08:00

hmmmm...

2005-02-19T10:16:00.000-08:00

sand coffin!!

2 more days to ORD!!!

2005-02-15T22:45:00.000-08:00

Finally the time has come and the day is arriving soon,i will no longer be a dog of the stupid army and i can cosplay and bleach hair loh!!!But then again,kinda will miss the slack life in my past 2 yrs...Updayes lately...i know that to many ppl,they wun bother to read my blog cos always nevr update one haha..Kuek reminded me abt my blog which makes me type this update now lohz...Nothing much actually but just the feb 19th cosplay dinner,I'm looking forward to it cos i'll be doing Gaara from Naruto,my 1st anime cosplay!!But my weapon may not be up to standard cause its my 1st time doing it all by myself.Some concepts may clash with the seasoned anime cosplayers just hope no one flames me after Sat XD!!Gotta collect my costume ,bleach my hair and then after cosplay on sat Mon i will be starting work at Paris Miki,hmm kinda fast but i guess i'll still be keeping my red bleached hair with a little help from Gatsby Black hair color spray..could turn colored hair to black or dark brown.I'm gonna get a few cans of that as the job doesnt allow me to keep colored hair :P .I recieved a call from the boss that they will hire me just right after that bloody incident at Comics Connection.Which was kinda a consolation for me kekez.Now regarding the comics connection incident,here's more of it. The boss actually agreed to let me work on Mon after i verify all my comittments with her last Sat.Actually i wanted tp prevent such problems from happening which is why i told her earilier i needed Saturdays off for Jamming and stuffs.She told me i can start work on Mon.ok i was in high morale until Mon.She gave me a briefing and suddenly told me theres problem with me wanting to off on Saturdays.I was like huh?? Ok nvm after much discussion i told her i will really work my best and do well in the job and if u want me to work on Saturdays i dun mind.She said that i'm not really comitted in applying this job.I was real pissed when she said that and in the end she asked me to go home and see if they consider employing me or not.I ended up at home after that.I tell u all whoever is reading this,think twice next time if u wanna work there.Hmm for band matters i guess nothing much except this week a bit siong,will have 2 jamming sessions instead of one due to the April gig.Hopefully Nic makes improvements and Cheng Yi can keep in time better.Haizz everyone thinks my band has the closest bond yeah i see that so far this line up is the best i'vegot since the past 2 yrs but we are really hanging loose not tight enuff to play properly yet..hmmm must really work hard on our coordination and chemistry also get our sounds balanced up and all cause i really want this to work this time round,last year we screwed up this time we'll have to learn from mistakes and improve not just stay there at the same level.Hmm i really pray and hope Nic works hard and performs much better than the past few times,i see he can play well for rhythm but needs to work hard on his solos and stuffs.At least i'm glad he finally got thru the solo part in Undecided which is a relief for me cause i was thinking whether to change song or not.Hope he maintains and improves his playing and to all those reading this,Obscurity maybe a low profiled band but we will continue to work hard and try our best to promote local music for all u music lovers out there. Well i guess that sums up all of the weeks programme,sori to all those who are bored when it comes to my blog,cause i prefer to keep it simple rather than design this and that in my blog page hahaz.I will try to update more often thru the times.Oh ya by the way,there's something important i wanna tell all movie goers:DUN GO AND WATCH SHAOLIN VS EVIL DEAD.DUN EVER WATCH THAT WATCH IT AT UR OWN RISK HOR?cos that movie erm.... i give it -5/5 note that:negative 5 / positive 5 hor.So u still wanna go watch and waste money then go ahead ba LOLz.Ok gotta run now...hope tomoro will be another happy day~~~
To Obscurity ...and beyonnnnnnD~~~~~!!*gonez*

loooong time update againz..

2005-01-23T01:10:00.000-08:00

Hmm once again i didnt update my blog for like 2 months?Anyway happy 2005 to all i know its kinda late now cos its mid Jan but still..hahaz.Well,nothing much lately in store for me this new year,my only resolution this yr is to make Obscurity(my band) more recognised i guess?I hope with the new guitarist and drummer,we can work harder and lesser screw ups in the upcoming gigs in April and June's Street Fest.One thing for sure is that this year's gig is slightly special cause my pen pal from America is coming over to cosplay!!Yay hahaz.Its the 1st time i'm having someone from the other end of the world to come over and visit me so i'm kinda excited XD. She will be doing Kozi from Malice Mizer and i hope to take lotsa pics with her that day.Hmmm,for now the usual rehearsing with my band every weekend,working on my vocals and slacking on Saturdays with the rest of the gang.Today,we really did slack the whole day as in i met up with ed and the rest at Far East then we went to TCC (the coffee conneusiuer) to chat there,after which we went over to another food court to have dinner and then went over to Mos burger to chat till abt 11+.It was a nice evening as we really talk rubbish thruout the day LOLz.Haiz one thing's that's stressing me out is the cosplay images for this year.I'm gonna cos anime for the 1st time doing Gaara from Naruto comics.But there's still the problem of getting his gian gourd done hmmm..gotta figure that out asap,for the gig in June,i'm gonna do one of Kyo's Kisou live images which is kinda revealing haha but i'll work on that too after i get my leopard pants from Queensway.Hopefully,i can get the job at Comics connection cause i'll need the money to pay for my cosplays and tattoos and stuffs hmmm for now its just clubbing,chilling out and slacking until Feb 17th then...ORD lo!!Back to blonde hair again,oooo how i miss my golden mane hahaz....ahhh...come to think of it,its good leading a single life once more .....

ahhh finallly..

2005-01-01T10:35:00.000-08:00

Yeah,finally time to update my blog after such a long time hahahaz.I know those who are constantly reading my blog might think i wont update anymore but the reason is that i've been staying in camp for the past 2 weeks and only book out during weekends where i go out the whole day.Man really didnt sleep much for the past 2 weekends.Just last week,we celebrated Ed's birthday at his chalet and today this morning i just came home from ton-ing at Rimei's house.Kinda fun actually cause i get to watch MUCC,Inugami circus dan and casshern! I must say i've always tot that indies bands are just of so-so level,but MUCC and the guitarist from Inugami proved me wrong.The bassist and guitarist of MUCC are just fantabulous!Bass lines are smooth,funky rhythm from the guitar and inugami gave mi an old sch rock kinda feel in their songs.Just that they are really crappy on stage eg:dancing para para,the female vocal Kyoko screaming until ur hair can stand!! then comes the Onmyouza live which is fwah..the best true japanese metal band.After that, we watched casshern which was a good show but kinda hard to understand at some parts.Overall was a nice but tiring night.2 hrs later,i'll be going over to watch Brian's side band,Zenith and Mayfair jamming.Hmm gotta check out Zenith's drummer cause he will be playing for my side soon.Its going out till late night again today but i dun mind cause i'm on off on Mon and i'm in a mood of ORD!!! Time really flies.Can feel my blonde locks crawling back to me very soon hehehehe XD!!hmm wonder whats wrong with me lately...ever since my last relationship i seem to have interest in many girls at one time die die cannot like this..Now i seem to have lost the motiviation to go after S.Z,cos i kena sot by another cute ger who was at the far east cosplay event..hmmm dilemma....but then again i still want my freedom how sia...those got any advice pls leave in my comments :P Oh ya regarding the far east cosplay,i salute Kyoist for her courage to sing on stage even though the sound screwed up and she won! haha yeah!! Remind me of the cosfest in 2003 when i won too :P Anyway,she's gonna treat those who came to support her and so i got a free meal this Sunday!!Hope the cute girl appears hahaz.But then there's also another erm...so called "band" that is named Apollo or something, one of them reminds me of Nic from Amethyst le craft LOLz and they are a 3 piece band.... hmmm wonder how they would sound cos they seemed "visual".. Notice i used the word "seemed".I'm looking forward to their future performance to see whether they are another good band or crap band hahaz...I guess thats all for my long time update.Think its long enuff for one post hmm I will update again today or tmr....

The biggest comedy in my life...

2004-11-21T23:20:00.000-08:00

Sat,it was Ah Long's birthday and we were invited to his chalet in Pasir Ris.I reached about 3+ hang around until evening before they start the buffet and bbq.Didnt eat much that night cause we were busy drinking and talking away.Then later in the night we played some games and that's where the comedy starts...I know i shouldnt be putting such embarassing stuffs up here but well,its a memorable one..Anyway,it was about 6+ they stopped playing games and rested and i suddenly had the urge to just drink and drink cause i want the kick to continue so i just drank until a point that i really dunno what i'm doing and just lie around everywhere puke,spout nonsense and feeling really F***ed up.I think it was a day tat i shocked most but also make most of them laff cause they kept on disturbing me also talking nonsense to me..-___-"" This is the 1st time i got so drunk and i hope to be the last cause its really damn sia suay lo.The next chalet which is Ed's birthday i think i will try to stay away from the liquor and just drink when they start playing games.Still, i must say hard liqour is good stuff man!!Which was why i also kept on mixing and drinking five shots in a row...well whoever wants to KPO and noe more go ask whoever was at the chalet overnight lo...sigh.. really like clown sia....

Finally it seems it has ended..

2004-11-15T21:25:00.000-08:00

The blog war seems to have ended finally not because there's no more comments but because Akane deleted that post with 33 comments le hahazz..Anyway,i am glad too that it has come to an end although it became a war that involved other people instead.How strange...but i have apologised to Akane regarding the insults and promised her not to post anymore shit or whatsoever.It was started by me and i hope i can end this .For now i hope everything's fine...Ok back to my daily stuffs,today just went to met my friend for dinner and then she came over my house for a visit.haha She was surprised by how different i looked in the past when she glanced thru the puris,she said that with my long blonde longs i look much better which i strongly agree lo!!Anyway she also said that Akane really spent a lot of time and effort in doing the book of memories.Very "xi xin" yeah i think so too felt really bad that most of the things r written by her.Argh supposed to memorise my lyrics for the gig in 3 weeks time but havent do so...must start practicing my vocals soon man..too long never sing le...Oh ya for those reading this blog,Obscurity will be having a mini mini gig on 10th dec.Those whor real free can come lo...cos we will only be performing 3 songs then very paiseh to ask a lot of people to come all the way to waterloo st and watch also^-^""There will be other bands performing also and its organise by Brian's guitar teacher . His "shifu" will be playing Naruto's theme song and The final countdown, thats what i heard..and at the end of the gig there will be a display of guitar riffs and solos with his guitar teacher and his students..quite interesting la but the place havent confirm yet but i will keep u guys informed asap..Must ganbatte for now......

urgh......

2004-11-08T02:52:00.000-08:00

Supposed to update my blog last night but dunno whats wrong with the blog site cannot access so update now lo..Yesterday was Kuek's friend,Alan's birthday so i went to chiong at Music Underground again.This time with Jon.Same old thing,had a few drinks danced and played pool..the only diffrence is last night got more hot babes around i also dunno why but suddenly got a lot appeared last night haha..had an eye feast :P~~~Then today the whole group of us went to watch Genexis perform for the Asian Beat semi finals and i can say they were the dark horse that got in cause from start,the emcee seems to be suaning us J-rock supporters so i thought the judges were skeptical as well,but glad that they made it thru and congrats to all of them.Hope they will give their best in the finals too.Surprisingly i saw many people that i havent seen for ages,eg:toriko,Zero,Gisho and lots more others...Havent changed much though...Also,i met up with Qiaoling and asked her regarding Akane's blog flaming and after hearing her whole story i think she's somewhat was being accused and backstabbed,i guess it was a lucky thing she met me today,cause if not she would be still kept in the dark about it.It seems that she didnt know that certain people have been backstabbing and saying nasty things about her...and its lucky that i met her today cause i found out even more things that i didnt know about the break-up.it seems that Akane is trying to hide the fact that she wants to go with Blackie cause YC saw both of them at Kino and asked if i knew that she was with him,she said no..then YC asked what happens if she sees mi..then she said she will explain things but guess what...the "lovely" couple decided to siam me quickly when they saw me coming to Kino at the same time! explain things...hah! my foot!I just think that they have no guts to face me,and she,she has no guts to tell the truth...tell me what " wants to remain single and concentrate on exams.."I nearly bought that .Guess i just put my trust in the wrong girl then...Anyway,its also a blessing in disguise that we aint together anymore cause it has made me see the true colors of some people that includes Blackie who always acts to be nice in front of Qiaoling and backstabs her behind and also make me see that my ex is just like a lallang grass...the wind blow North,she sways to the north,the wind blow South she sways to the South...I also don't know what she gets from lying,I rather she tells the truth that she wants him instead of saying some bullshit reason cause i hate people lying to me especially someone whom i trusted 100%.Ok so what if she really never was at Kino,lets just say IF la,Qiaoling is lying, I bet she wouldnt even dare to tell me whats really happening...I am writing all these not to just vent my anger or dig up old wounds but to let people around me to know whats really happening and what kind of character certain people have,cause it seems that some friends of mine are trusting the wrong people and blaming the wrong people...I hope that any of you guys who read this will know who are the ones who are putting on a mask in front of u,i have got over the break up long ago but there are some things kept in me and its bad for myself not to let it out.Those who are pissed by what i said,so be it,but i believe i didnt say anything wrong and i have a clear conscience....If i am really that scheming to have the intention of insulting someone i wouldnt just write it here, i will just paste what disgusting shit Blackie wrote in irc in my blog and post it.But i wouldnt do that for now unless he tries anything funny or offends me again.Guess thats all i have for now..ahhh feel more relieved saying everything here..time to sleep now..

Happy Halloween!!

2004-10-30T00:24:00.000-07:00

As the above i wish everyone tonight a happy halloween hahazz...sorry for the delayed update really too busy liao always in camp and weekend only go out very late...well i will update from last Sat till this Sat la..Last Sat Ah Long invited us to go clubbing cos Kuek got a fren who can get us in Music Underground for free.I had a great time there as i danced and drink and smoke haha..really shiok after so long never chiong (ever since my Beng days where Sparks was the "in" place haha)We went in at abt 11 then left abt 4am then went home sleep... then today i went out with a friend i known thru Irc..Her name's Weiying and she's a very chatty person .really enjoyed the whole day with her as we went to the movies then went to eat then walk around then take Puri also.Go out with her sure chop plus guarantee not boring one haha...after that we chatted behind the Irish Pub and drank a little,where we met afew idiots dressed up as vampires(i was scarier than them with my Kyo make up i think...) scaring us which was a little lame lo -__- then nvm la happy happy ma so entertain them a bit haha..then after that i sent her back to her Hougang home then i went back....Haizz if only she's single and available hor sure give it a try one but hor hmm.. nvm la haha see situation...still wanna enjoy my freedom for now...

the mood spoiler cometh

2004-10-10T14:11:00.000-07:00

yesterday Sat outing as usual...was supposed to get my tattoo cos my pay come liao in the end Jiaxiong and Jon asked mi to think it over 1st dun be so rash cos its permanent and might live to regret it.So now my arms are still clean haha still thinking leh not totally give up on the idea hmmmm maybe i do my name on my forearm 1st or something....anyway at night we went over to the ramen shop in Cuppage to eat gyozas long time nevr eat le feeling is shiok until the mood spoiler came over with Akane. Lucky i finish my meal le or else again spoil my appetite.The worst thing is he also came to play billiards with us which spoil my whole night with them .Cant concentrate on playing also dunno why i still like that..i tried to feel happy but failed to do so..haizz looks like i am really gonna hate this bugger for life....After the game,mi and the rest went to talk cock until 3+am then went home....and thus i wake up now to write this blog.

shag arh....

2004-10-09T03:29:00.000-07:00

had a lousy week....busy in camp with my store stuffs ,gotta work overtime at night somemore and got lots of scoldings and pressure from my superior..haizz really stressed and tired man...got work also kena complain no work also kena complain .i just hope time passes faster so that i cant end this quickly...Still waiting for my ORD date..so near yet seems so far....Only motivation now is that we are finally after so long awarded a day's off for working overnight last week..hmmm must control cannot anyhow use .Tomoro's plan :to wait for pay to come in and go get my 1st tattoo done after delaying for so long! Will go with Ah Long to his fren's parlor to see the designs he has and see how much also..also Brian's side band is jamming and i'm gonna drop by to give views on his new vocalist...thats all for now i guess sleeep........zzzzzz

feeling lousy....

2004-10-09T00:11:00.000-07:00

been some time since i updated my blog...well didnt really have time during the week cos since wed,been busy at camp until today when i booked out...gout shouted by my Ma'am in camp for nothing cause it wasnt totally my fault and from then onwards i was bloody pissed ...lost my mood for the whole day but still in the end managed to finish the work.Lucky all these would be over in 4 months time when i finish NS.Haizz finally ...time realy flies it seems like yesterday when i 1st enlisted...been thru lotsa stuffs.. learnt many things.At least the only motivation keeps me going cause i just earned a day's off for helping out in the overnight route march last week...and tomoro's Sat!! hmmm gonna see my guitarist's side band jamming then off to town to meet Ah long to bring me to his friend's tattoo parlour to get my 1st tattoo done..finally after so many months i started on my tattoo craze..planning to get a demon done on my arm then subsequently will add on for the rest...

2004-10-03T04:07:00.000-07:00

sianzz man damn shag...just went for overnight "sai kang" for those stupid recruits in camp from fri night till sat morning nvr sleep for the whole night then after that i went out to meet ed and the others without any sleep =___= only caught a quick nap in the bus trip home just now.Today was a bit tired so wasnt really enjoying the late night chat with ed and the rest..but the funny thing is now i am damn awake arghhh... nvm tomoro is Sun can sleep whole day...sorta still enjoying the weekend though...mon and tues still got work to do...dont care liao wed and thurs die die must take off ...want to die liaozzzz sianzzzzzz......

lyrics..

2004-09-29T21:23:00.000-07:00

here's the next song that i wrote..i planned it to be a punk rock song thus the crappy lyrics hahazz

J-E-R-K

He wears big tees & drooping jeans
Spiking his wrongly colored hair
before working with coffee beans
wearing branded sneakers & his nerdy glasses

going mad over underaged schoolgirls
ogling at them with his slitty eyes
flirting with them with his sucky ways
so they will let him lay

everyone thinks he's a moron with a mouth that cheats & lies
but junior girls just think he's so romantic
what the hell??!

chorus:

J-E-R-K
He steals the love of people
J-E-R-K
He does it for his pleasure
J-E-R-K
His mum's a little looney
J-E-R-K
He loves to be the 3rd party

getting fired from his job
got his ass kicked out by his looney mum
he tries to cheat girls thru love
with his little lies

He goes between a couple
& took the girl away
breaking up the lovely relationship
he did all these and feels happy about it

lyrics..

2004-09-29T21:08:00.000-07:00

well call it venting my anger or expressing myself or whatever... just some lyrics i thought of writing regarding my failed relationship....its about this 3rd party that came between us....no matter what i'd like to thank him for giving me inspiration to write these....

Enemy in my life

I was nurturing the fruit of happiness inside me
but u stole it away from me injecting pain inside me

I had the branches of Love growing
but u had to break them all
with your hatred and selfishness

Nothing good comes out from you
Your presence causes torment and torture
Indulging in hurting others for your self-pleasure

Pain of others is like weed to you.
Smoking it to go to the skies

I despise u like the stray hounds on the streets
I hate you till Death calls upon you.
Cause you're like excreted dirt of humans
useless waste of nothingness

You're the enemy in my life forever..
whenever you're near,my hatred just appears
I will always look upon you with eyes of fire
cursing you silently into Hell
as the day u perish will be the moment of joy for me

corrupting the minds of the innocence
potraying the wrongly accused
when you're the mastermind

injecting fake sympathy into people
to get what you want

Triumphant you may seem but foolish i am not
The heart of Evil in you
I will battle till my life ends..

my 1st posting in blog..

2004-09-29T08:52:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone..i know i'm a little late in starting to write my own blog but well i started this blog mainly is because i really need to get somethings outta my heart into somewhere and today marks my supposedly 2 yr anniversary relationship with Bao Bao..notice i used "supposedly" cos its been 1mth plus since she left me.....haizzz anyway got it over got it done no use crying over spilled milk...Nothing much has been done for today..after the morning run just slept in my bunk until 11am then went for lunch and then slack in office again as usual boring day..hate to have nothing to do cos i will think of her again still sorta miss her still but well.. some things just leave and never come back...just booked out of camp and going back later..gotta rest early cause the next few days gonna have to do overnight duty in camp sianzzzzzz......